Dealing with loss

I've suffered a loss recently, and I'm struggling to know how to deal with it. You see, I lost my best friend this weekend. Not by death (thank the Lord above), but by a severing of ties. My heart is breaking. How do I begin to know how to function without this person?

My best friend is sad, frustrated, tired, and feeling hopeless. I can relate. We've both felt this way for so long. Too long. My BF wants time to think....wants space. It's SO hard to give this, as I long to have my BF near me. And I'm afraid that if left alone for too long, my BF will forget everything good about us.

We've let outside events and players determine our worth, our responses, and our feelings. We thought we could fix it on our own. Clearly we can't. I am praying for one more try. One last attempt to fix what we have been unable to do ourselves.

I don't know if it'll work, but I have to try. I just can't give up on us that easily. I know my BF so well, and I know what is wanted is to stop the chaos, not the relationship between us.

My dearest, best friend. I hope you will see this and know that I love you tremendously.

Beth